I woke this more trying to put a brave face on, trying to stay up beat with everything happening around me. For some reason it doesn't matter how positive I stay my family seem to dash my upbeat mood in one.

Today I though right less get going, so I turned on the computer looking for a brochure printers and Designers.Then set to work on designing a brochure, well I even added a few photos ect. I only asked my dad what he thinks and I get my head bitten off. I felt it was uncalled for.
The reason I lack so much in confidences is everyone around me dashes the slighist hope I have. I am sitting here watching my life slowly being taken up with there problems and having them put on me.

I feel really trapped and want to break free of this. I really want a job or some kind of purpose in life. At the moment I feel like I am not living. I don't even think my family can see what they are doing wrong here. All I know is the presure is getting to me. I have been saving up just in case it gets too much, at the moment I am having to save a little. Thats why I need to get a job or this business of mine starts to work.